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Thursday, December 30, 2010
Happy Birthday
Today, Dec 29th, would have been my sister's 39th birthday had she been alive. I spent the day rushing and have had little time to reflect on her memory.
I have to say I miss her still very much and wish she was her to talk about the little things in life, like getting older. I turned 40 this last Aug. and it would be her turn next so would have liked to be able to gripe about those things we were having to suddenly deal with due to age.
Sometimes I feel so alone when I remember she is gone and there just isn't anyone who can fill that void in my heart.
Ruthie and I were complete opposites and we fought all the time but we had the same childhood and no one can ever know the joys and sorrows we shared growing up. And even with our differences as adults we had some very good times. One of my favorites was when I was pregnant with my son. I had been unable to sleep all night, was so uncomfortable, and ended up on her doorstep at 6 or 7 in the morning. She was living out in a small town in the country but I drove out to spend some time with her since was so restless. She was still in bed but got up to spend time with me. After she got coffee going she went out to feed the chickens. This is funny because we are city girls and didn't get raised taking care of farm animals. Those chickens though flocked to her and followed her around while she got the feed. Was the funniest site I have ever seen! She was completely surrounded and they trailed after her waiting for breakfast to be served.
I really like that memory.
Ruthie had a heart of gold and she loved children. I have very found memories of her with my girls sitting on her lap at the same time chatting away with them while they each played with half of her hair. She loved them dearly and never could get enough of Aunt Ruthie.
These are the things I think about on her birthdays as I pay tribute to my sister another year.
From Sorrow to Joy
On this day six years ago
You bid this world good bye
I hit my knees and before the Lord
I took my painful cry
Before the gates of heaven above
I poured out my endless sorrow
I moaned and whined and cried about
How “I” would make it through tomorrow
But Christ came down and took my hand
And showed me my mistake
He held me close in His arms
To sooth my endless ache
He told me there was peace in Heaven
Your pain would be no more
You’d find the rest you sought at last
Like nothing you’d found before
So I dried my eyes, looked up and smiled
The end is not so bad
She’s parted from me but for awhile
There’s a reason to be glad
~Sara~
Feb. 11, 2005
To our yellow rose of Texas, you are missed!
I have to say I miss her still very much and wish she was her to talk about the little things in life, like getting older. I turned 40 this last Aug. and it would be her turn next so would have liked to be able to gripe about those things we were having to suddenly deal with due to age.
Sometimes I feel so alone when I remember she is gone and there just isn't anyone who can fill that void in my heart.
Ruthie and I were complete opposites and we fought all the time but we had the same childhood and no one can ever know the joys and sorrows we shared growing up. And even with our differences as adults we had some very good times. One of my favorites was when I was pregnant with my son. I had been unable to sleep all night, was so uncomfortable, and ended up on her doorstep at 6 or 7 in the morning. She was living out in a small town in the country but I drove out to spend some time with her since was so restless. She was still in bed but got up to spend time with me. After she got coffee going she went out to feed the chickens. This is funny because we are city girls and didn't get raised taking care of farm animals. Those chickens though flocked to her and followed her around while she got the feed. Was the funniest site I have ever seen! She was completely surrounded and they trailed after her waiting for breakfast to be served.
I really like that memory.
Ruthie had a heart of gold and she loved children. I have very found memories of her with my girls sitting on her lap at the same time chatting away with them while they each played with half of her hair. She loved them dearly and never could get enough of Aunt Ruthie.
These are the things I think about on her birthdays as I pay tribute to my sister another year.
From Sorrow to Joy
On this day six years ago
You bid this world good bye
I hit my knees and before the Lord
I took my painful cry
Before the gates of heaven above
I poured out my endless sorrow
I moaned and whined and cried about
How “I” would make it through tomorrow
But Christ came down and took my hand
And showed me my mistake
He held me close in His arms
To sooth my endless ache
He told me there was peace in Heaven
Your pain would be no more
You’d find the rest you sought at last
Like nothing you’d found before
So I dried my eyes, looked up and smiled
The end is not so bad
She’s parted from me but for awhile
There’s a reason to be glad
~Sara~
Feb. 11, 2005
To our yellow rose of Texas, you are missed!
Friday, December 24, 2010
Baa Humbug!
I am just having trouble getting into the spirit of the season. We had our Christmas party today and it turned out pretty good but it seemed like everyone just wanted to grab their gift after they ate. No one wanted to share the joy of the gift they gave. It just seems the older I get the more I find this season to be one of greed and nasty treatment of others because your in a hurry to get everything done.
I have also found by working in call center that people just plain get stupid over the holidays. I have had to deal with telling more people no they can't just get a free phone because they have had an account for a long time. Or being told every whining sob story designed to get me to give them some credit on something they did do and should be charged for. Why can't people just keep the bill paid and if they use the service then PAY for it and stop expecting others to just make it go away. It's not that I'm insensitive to people who really do have an issue and are calling in to see what they need to do so they don't get behind. It seems that most are just looking for a free ride though and those I have no pity for when they are trying to work me to get what they want.
Christmas is no longer about the family but how many presents you are going to get. It's not about finding the right gift for someone because you care and being happy that you made someones day with it. It's about making sure you don't get something that costs more than what you were given or to compete with someone else on how many gifts you gave or how much it cost. The joy and love is lost from this greedy holiday. Where are the families getting together instead of rushing off to some party somewhere? Where is the smile towards the stranger in the street or the store? Where is the understanding that everyone is finding it a tight year and instead of expecting the expensive gifts being happy with something less expensive or homemade?
One of the girls at work was upset because her brother bought everyone in the family something from online when they all agreed to make things this year. She had worked and worked on scarves for her family and thought of other simple gifts to give but were all carefully chosen and from her heart. She was in tears because he was going to be giving better gifts. I think hers is the better gifts because of the love and time she put into them. I may becoming a cynic but I just am left empty on Christmas anymore and can't wait till it's over. Every time I try to get excited something seems to knock the wind out of my sails. I know I've gone on and on and I really don't want to do without Christmas but rather wish it could be the way it was meant to be, a holiday to remember Christ's birth and the hope of mankind for salvation.
Remember to smile at people and wish them blessings and a joyful holiday.
~Merry Christmas~
I have also found by working in call center that people just plain get stupid over the holidays. I have had to deal with telling more people no they can't just get a free phone because they have had an account for a long time. Or being told every whining sob story designed to get me to give them some credit on something they did do and should be charged for. Why can't people just keep the bill paid and if they use the service then PAY for it and stop expecting others to just make it go away. It's not that I'm insensitive to people who really do have an issue and are calling in to see what they need to do so they don't get behind. It seems that most are just looking for a free ride though and those I have no pity for when they are trying to work me to get what they want.
Christmas is no longer about the family but how many presents you are going to get. It's not about finding the right gift for someone because you care and being happy that you made someones day with it. It's about making sure you don't get something that costs more than what you were given or to compete with someone else on how many gifts you gave or how much it cost. The joy and love is lost from this greedy holiday. Where are the families getting together instead of rushing off to some party somewhere? Where is the smile towards the stranger in the street or the store? Where is the understanding that everyone is finding it a tight year and instead of expecting the expensive gifts being happy with something less expensive or homemade?
One of the girls at work was upset because her brother bought everyone in the family something from online when they all agreed to make things this year. She had worked and worked on scarves for her family and thought of other simple gifts to give but were all carefully chosen and from her heart. She was in tears because he was going to be giving better gifts. I think hers is the better gifts because of the love and time she put into them. I may becoming a cynic but I just am left empty on Christmas anymore and can't wait till it's over. Every time I try to get excited something seems to knock the wind out of my sails. I know I've gone on and on and I really don't want to do without Christmas but rather wish it could be the way it was meant to be, a holiday to remember Christ's birth and the hope of mankind for salvation.
Remember to smile at people and wish them blessings and a joyful holiday.
~Merry Christmas~
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